Not so moody paper

For the last twenty years I’ve utilized the creative process to expunge the negative feelings I experienced; my work is neutral or dark in tone. Relationships, when depicted, seem twisted, and it was all very much needed and genuine at the time. But I am challenging myself to try something new. Brighter colors and a different kind of beauty that focuses less on past suffering and more toward joy. Maybe it will be a successful experiment, or maybe I won’t feel that I am in my own skin, but I think it’s worth a try.

I felt like I needed a guide, and I have always loved the work of Kelly Rae Roberts, so I have signed up for one of her e-courses. It doesn’t start until mid-February, but I am already excited about the possibilities and it is helping me with a very important DBT skill already.

As I am winding down with DBT therapy I am finding that my art is integrating the concepts and skills we use on a daily basis. One of those is opposite action, which is, as it sounds, mindfully choosing to behave in a way opposite of an emotion that isn’t effective. All emotions teach us something, but there is a difference between experiencing pain, and choosing to dwell in it, which leads to suffering.

I also chose Kelly Rae Robert’s e-course because there is a community section where participants will interact, and I have been longing for more of a community studio time without having to leave the comfort of my home studio. I am so excited to see if I am able to take her teachings and apply it to my own work, creating my own unique look that may have a thought provoking message for others.

Zero to …DBT

So I’ve been trying to do the Zero to Hero exercises, but also keep up with my DBT skills of being effective in balancing life beyond this computer screen. I took off my Zero to Hero cape for a while and decided not to decide anything right now.

I don’t know what my blog wants to be, it just wants to have a tantrum and take a nap. That’s exactly what it is going to do for a few days until it brushes itself off and gets to deciding what makes a blog worth reading.

Until then, enjoy Zero to Hero for those participating, I’ll be commenting on blogs when I am able.

hugs and germ free kisses,

Moody paper

creative goals

I’m an artist, a single mom and a person with bipolar. I use my blog to set creative goals, to talk about what inspires me, or express myself to get through what we call a bipolar “mixed state.”

I don’t know that I’m in a place where I can help others beyond saying I’ve been there too, I know how it feels to have bipolar, especially mixed states, to struggle, to achieve and then fall a few steps back. I do love to celebrate the moments when we are able to use what life throws our way to create beauty in the world.